The traumas I carried from my childhood were related to my parents seperation and divorce. It was a long painful battle for custody that involved solictiors and court cases, eventually ending in my Father gaining main custody of my Sister and I. I felt hurt, anger and immense pain like I’d lost my Mother. The only way I could get through each day was to push that feeling so far down that I couldn’t feel it anymore. Then I’d cry myself to sleep each night. I did that for years and my big sister was the only one who knew.

This coping strategy spilled out in to all aspects of my life affecting my relationships, finances and career. ‘People Pleaser’ was my middle name until I realised I had to deal with uncomfortable feelings that I avoided experiencing because it was painful. I preferred tending to other peoples feelings and emotions above my own so I didn’t have to feel the disapointment or guilt from saying no.

Being a Personal Trainer I had a healthy, active lifestyle but I did frequently soothe myself with food, partying and over spending.  I was unaware of this at the time until the world came to a halt in 2020 and I had to close my Fitness Studio.

Change was ok, I’m pretty adaptable and a solution orientated person, so I took my business online. However, the anger I felt towards people in government was unbearable. The ‘injustice’ of closing health and fitness facilities and keeping open fast food chains was outrageous to me. People who worked for alcohol companies became key workers, yet the industry that directly supported the NHS wasn’t important. This was hugely triggering for me.

And there it was, an outpouring of suppressed emotions exploding like fireworks on Bonfire night. All those feelings of anger, loss and abandonment from childhood resurfaced with a vengeance. For me, being told what to do for mine and my families health, triggered the subconscious unhealed wound of worry, fear and loss from when I was 6 years old.

I managed this with deepening my spriritual practices, yoga and meditating more frequently.  One evening I came across a Therapist called Marisa Peer who was doing an online hypnotherapy experience.  I registered and took part in something called Rapid Transformational Therapy to understand more about subconscious behaviours. I was blown away with how powerful this technique was and immediately wanted to learn more.

I enrolled as a student in 2022 and was mentored by Marisa herself and her fantastic team of tutors. It has changed my life in the most profound way and changed the life of many of my clients. I am so grateful to have met Marisa and be supported in my own healing journey. My intention is to share the benefits of Rapid Transformational Therapy and help people all over the world heal from past traumas.